Do I Dare?
This week in our Homeroom class at JWS, we talked about being stuck and in the first hours of the most Monday of Mondays I found something that I didn’t quite like. Now I am very much a type-A, organized, sticky-note-loving human being and my expertise is literally planning and executing whatever comes my way. In fact, I have a business helping people to create systems to plan and execute their lives. So when I am stuck, it is not the lack of being able to figure how do something that is keeping me there. It is my own f*cking mindset.
Now I know I said my expertise was productivity and organization, but if I’m honest my real expertise is being the biggest imposter that imposter syndrome has ever seen. I am huge believer in positive affirmations, mindfulness, yoga, therapy, coaching, and all the things we use to fight imposter syndrome, but it is still something that I sit with on a daily and consistent basis.
Today I was having a conversation with someone about how I could find ways to donate my knowledge among the current crisis and they suggested I write a blog. I laughed at them. This was the third time someone had suggested I write a blog this week and I was not having it. Now it’s important to note that I love writing and I constantly write for other people and even used to work as a freelance writer. However writing about myself, my life, and my business is something that scares me more than just about anything else in the world.
Today I showed up to CREATE (another JWS masterpiece) and was told to dip into my discomfort zone. That place right outside our comfort zone, but not quite to the panic zone. What do we actually have the skills to do, but the fear to keep us from doing?
Do we dare?
Welp. Here I am. Trying to write blog post number one. Staring the imposter straight in the face and saying “Screw you I’m gonna do it anyways.”
One of the many affirmations that I have been using in recent weeks (again courtesy of Jen Waldman Studio) is “The world needs what I have to give.” The first time I said this out loud, I found myself subconsciously disagreeing with it. However, it has become a turning point for me. It has made me realign with my “why” of loving, empowering, and inspiring others to create empathy, connection and community. So maybe this is what the world needs me to give. Call it God, the spirit, the universe, or a plain coincidence, but everything is pointing me to do this. So do I dare to share? I guess the only way to see if the #rhyme is true is to just do it.
